Chocolates ~ Ours to keep

I miss eating chocolates with you in lecture halls
I miss feeling special
to be the only one that you shared chocolates with
I miss those times back in College.
Wish we could eat chocolates together again...

I know we will
Oneday

*hearts*

23rd~ours to keep

I will finish strong

Many a times when things don't seem to go our way
We tend to think that we've got it bad
Its the same for me...

When things seem to come crushing down on me
when the pressure is on
I tend to think that I have got it worst..

But I thank God who works in marvelous ways..
A wonder of how a small motivational clip can open up my eyes
reminding me
that He will not throw you something that you can't handle.

In life,
there will always be situations thrown at us
to build us up
to build my character

I will have to try again
and again
and again..

No matter how hard it is
no matter how tough it seems
I will have to finish this race
and
I intend to finish it strong

That is a promise I make to myself

Sometimes I just wish that crying my heart out will make every hurt go away...

will make everything turn out right again...

But it'll never happen that way...

You said I don't have the passion in doing what I want..

You said you don't see that passion...

I'm never good enough...

It would help much if you'd give me more encouragements than criticism....

I've disappointed you with an average A level results...

thus I have to prove myself worthy of being sponsored by you to do my degree...

Reason why I don't tell you that I have a blog is because I don't know how much more criticism you'd have to add for me...

You said if I can't accept criticism and pressure then don't do it...

Do you know how much it sucks to hear that from someone you'd hope to recieve encouragement from??...

I stop talking...

When I know that I can't turn to you anymore...

You say things as if you know...

You assume things as if you know...

Then you go on saying ''Go ahead and tell everyone that I'm the cause of your failure'...

What are you trying to prove?...

Like you said, if I don't show my passion, you'll not sponsor me..

and thus you don't have to...

What the Doc said...

Latest update: Went to see a skin specialist

I've been having this rash like thing surfacing on my skin for quite some months and as usual I don't do anything about it until it starts to go red due to my excessive scratching.*booo*

So anyway, mom saw my rashes and she finally said to bring me to the skin specialist asap,reason coz' she's also been having this skin problem on her right leg since like I-don't-remember-when. So I got news that there's a good skin specialist at ss15( same row as Public Bank) and was adviced to call to make appointment as the queeue can get quite long. I didn't take that advice as I was thinking to myself, if I go early, I wouldn't have to wait long*brilliant*

I was so wrong! =.=''

That Saturday morning, I woke up around 8am-ish~ and our whole family left home about 8.40am! I drove so we reached ss15 and found a parking space about 9.15am. To my uttmost surprise, the clinic was already packed with patients! and the bussiness hour states that its opened from 9am to 4pm on Saturdays. Came 15minutes after opening and it was already packed!?! I asked the nurse how long would we have to wait before its our turn and the nurse said roughly 1hour or so. So okluh, 1 hour will pass by fast when we're doing something. We registered our names and went to Silva to eat breakfast.

About 10am we walked back to the clinic and ask how long more must we wait, nursie said maybe 30mins or so. So ok luh, we went to the nearby Watson to look at some stuff while enjoying the cool air-con. Half an hour later, we went back to the clinic and I specifically asked the nurse again how many patients more before its my turn. Nurse took quite some time to check and counted there were still 11 more patients to go. I was like @#%#$%#^!!!!

I came in at 9.15am, now its already 10.30am and you tell me I still got 11 more patients to go?!!! Ok fine, to kill some time me, sis and dad went to the nearby morning market in ss15 to shop for some groceries and to get myself familiarised to markets and raw food as I am doing the cooking nowadays. Mom didn't follow coz' she said her leg hurts when she walks.

We walked to the market, bear in mind it was the 10.30am morning sun which is HOT! Oh and just for the record, that day(Saturday) temperature was 36C. We walked and I saw that the stuff sold in the market was so much more expensive than the ones which I can get from KK's Pasar Tani or Hypermarket. Some examples: Lemons!Selling at Rm1 to 1.20 per piece in the market, Rm0.69 to 0.89 from hypermarket ; Granny smith apple, Rm10 for 14(ss15), Rm10 for 20(KK Pasar Tani)

However I saw some interesting stuff. I saw a pinkish red banana! They called it pisang Udang, its sweet! Finally saw an actual brussel sprout..hehe..dad said brussel sprouts are expensive coz' cannot get here in M'sia as they require cool weather to grow. Indeed the brussel sprout sold in ss15 was expensive, Rm22 per kg!

Facts on Brussel Sprouts: Has cholesterol lowering compound! High in Vitamin K(good for blood clot); High in anti oxidant; Good for cancer prevention =D

After the market trip, we walked back to the clinic which was about 11.15am. Asked the nurse another time and still got 5 more patients to go. =.='' Was finally called in about 11.45am.

Doc used a big magnifying glass to observe the rashes on my arm and he quickly concluded that I have eczema and continued saying that it could be hereditary. So I was thinking who has it..hmm..anyway Doc gave a 2 type of pills(one for morning, and one for night consume) and 2 type of cream(one for morning and one for night application). Doc asked me not to use Detol or Protex body wash as they're harsh for my skin, instead he asked me to use Dove which is mild on my skin.

Interesting advice given: For those who has eczema, after care of skin is uttmost important. Shower with cold water to soothe the itch and use moisturisers.

Interesting facts that I found out: The best way to trap moiture on skin is to apply the medicated cream and moisturisers within the 3 minutes after bath. Purpose of applying moisturisers is to retain the moisture from a shower onto the skin, so that the skin can stay moist. =D

Total bill for me is Rm115. To me its reasonable coz'
1.Its a specialist
2.Consultation fees is only Rm30
3. four types of medication for Rm85 which I can see the results within first application.

So yeah, Like I said, I could see my skin healing within the first application. I'm uber happy bout it =D The next appointment I have to make it to see Dr. G!..hehe

Lotsa Love and cheers! <3

Dorment NOT anymore!

My darling bloggie!

I've missed you!!!..hehehe...

Yesh yes I do realise I've been dorment for like 3 full months (July, August, September). Why? Its because I didn't have the mood to update my blog eventhough alot of events had happened. Why no mood? Its coz' of the little mood spoiler that happened one week after my A levels exam which I did blog about just a few post below.

Anyway I suddenly thought of blogging again is because of my dad. Yes, he does has a good amount of influence on me, influence to either totally spoil my mood or to push me to think and do something. You see, my dad found out that lil' sista has a blog and sis got all upset bout' it coz' to her, a blog is meant to be something private and kinda of a ''no parents are allowed'' area. Dad was happy and glad to have found her blog and was talking bout' it. And of course dad did encourage me to start a blog, start writing about my interested course and about my new found hobby ecetera. Then he goes on saying ' A blog is for people to read and see, if you don't want others to read your blog means you have something to hide."

So I was thinking to myself, should I start a new blog writing all about my hobby and interest and keep this blog with my real expressed feelings in the shadows? I came to a conclusion of a NO, I will not start a new blog, I will continue on with this current blog. This is my blog and this is where I express my discomfort, my dislike, my anger and my happiness. Everyone is free to read it and leave a comment but don't come judging me if you don't like the way I express or write about you or who-so-ever. Period. I have nothing to hide. Thats what I can say. I will reveal my blog to those who I want to when I think its the right time. As for now, If my parents or whoever relatives read my blog by accident then so be it.

So what happened during these 3 months...hmm...

July..
July went by not so pleasantly. As what I can remember there was tension going around between me and my parents regarding my degree course and my relationship and me finding a job. At the end, I got a teaching job at Xiao Dou Dou which pays quite well.

August..
I volunteered at Touch and Grow Community Support(TGCS) teaching special children for 2 months (August and September). I really enjoyed teaching those children, they are very special indeed.
Our Youth, Sword Squad had Pyjamas Night this month and Kean Lee joined us! I was of course happy that he could join us and that he can get to know our crazy youths..xD

September...
Went to Popular bookfest and bought a few books to read. One of which is a book regarding nutrition, quite interesting I must say. I'll write more on those in a new entry. Dad bought me a baking book and I've manage to try out quite a number of recipes and still counting =D. Will definately blog on those in a new entry =D

Those are just the summary of what had happened during the past 3 months..hehe...and the most important update is that I changed my hair style! =D

Ta-da!

11/06/2010

Ahh~ the not so sweet habit of procastination..

Yea I know, I know, been MIA-ing for a while since my last post eventho I'm actually quite free to blog everyday as I've got nothing much to do but to stay at home, sleep till noon, watch movie, eat, do house work and occasionally exercise. BUT the thing is, I ain't got the mood to blog due to certain mood issues as you can read in my previous post.
Anyways, it seems like today I've got the mood to blog. So I've decided to blog about Friday (11/06/2010).

Here is the entry for...

11th June 2010,

I'm sure many of you local readers out there have been to Genting Highlands at least once or twice. I personally have been there more than 3 times. and all of those times, the only reason I have plans of going up to Genting Highland is to go into their theme park and well of course enjoy and scream my heart out on the rides.

Today was different, the plan of going up to Genting with Kean Lee for a one day trip was suggested on Wednesday, planned a solid plan on Thursday and went up there on Friday. So it was kind of impromtu thing.

Both of us had the same idea in mind before we shared it with one another. We both thought about going up to Genting to just to walk around, enjoy the fresh air up there, look at the other attraction of Genting besides its theme park, enjoy one another company and of course capture beautiful memories together.

And the plan for Friday was taking LRT to Gombak station, buy a bus and cable car package ticket up to Genting. Walk around, take pictures, go into shops around Genting as most of the time I was always rushing to get into the theme park.

You know, I'm one of those who love to keep myself busy, fill in my time with activities, make sure that I have things to do everytime and feel in control just so that I can feel accomplished. However one of the thing that Kean Lee taught me was to learn to take a step back, observe and let things flow. The beauty of life cannot be seen and felt if we bury our head into what we want, it can be seen and felt if we learn to slow down and look at our surrounding, step out of our busy schedule for a moment and see what we're missing out. A level have really rob us of our time and the people around us. We're stuck in our own little world of A levels exams, not knowing what is going on in the world out there, not even knowing the activities going around TARC.

Anyway, we got ourselves up at Genting by 10.30am. The first thing I did when we arrived was that I dragged Kean Lee into the souvenier shop and got my sis, his sis and my mom some souveniers. hehehe.
Then we walked around Genting, saw that there were other hotels besides Awana and Theme Park Hotel.(All the while I really thought there were only those hotels). The Lobby of the other hotels were more posh and they have leather sofa's for guests to sit on which also mean that the room rates are exquisite. It was an eye opener for me coz' whenever I do stay over at Genting, the rooms are usually from the 2 hotels I mentioned. Anyway, we just walked blindly, exploring routes of how Genting manage to connect the whole place... and Kean Lee got hungry thus we went looking for food. To our surprise, there were buffet deals at RM27 per person, eat all you can. But we weren't up for that that day so the most worth eating food was KFC. And indeed, the chicken was bigger (size) and they have cucumbers..hehe..eat till jelak. We sat at the indoor theme park area for quite some time, just to look at the people around us, the family, the atmosphere.


We went to took some flower pictures and also took some pics with the flowers ;


Went to an open area which was like a balcony, it was windy, cloudy and definately nice.
Didn't stay at the area for long as it was packed with people, some even smoking.

Another garden, and yes, uniquely twisted tree =D
We sat around Genting for awhile more and left for home at about 6pm. Reach hostel about 9pm due to jam packed situation at the skyway cable car and the scheduled bus time.

There are some things that we both enjoy in doing like looking at the sky, feeling the breeze hence somethings we have in common in, Which make us enjoy even more what we actually love doing by Being able to do what you love and share it with your partner.

All in all, This trip up was definately a memorable and beautiful one.

Not so pleasant update I guess...

Hey peeps!

Its been one week since I've officially finished my Cambridge A level course. *Yippy!!!*

During this duration of one week, I spent some of my time with Kean Lee, some with lil' Sis, some watching lame movies at home and lots of sleeping till noon. =D

My past week plans

Thursday :
Last day of exam, went for badminton from 4pm till 6pm, tired ourselves out..hehe..but it was fun.
Went back hostel to freshen up and left for Pasar malam at 8pm!! =D
Went to Wangsa Walk straight after pasar malam at 10.45pm, wanted to catch a late night movie. Bought Prince of Persia ticket at 11.30pm. AWESomE movie!!! Worth watching. Movie ended at about 1.30am. Went back to hostel and snuuzzzzzzzzZZZZz

Friday :
Woke up early at about 8am(I don't even wake up so early for exam!!!...ok fine, I don't even sleep during exam..lolz)!
Prepared to go to GENTING!!!
Caught the 9.30 am bus to genting from gombak LRT station. Took skyway cable car up to Genting. Was sms-ing my parents throughout the whole trip about me going to genting..they were very paranoid. Understandable.
Didn't went into the themepark. Walk around and enjoy the air up in Genting. WIll elaborate more in a new post.

Saturday :
Left hostel about 11am, took LrT down to bangsar to cut my hair, then went to MidValley!
Parents fetch me home from hostel, hostel room was left bare as it was given to me.
Will elaborate more in a new post too ^^

Sunday :
Finally home!!! Was woken by mom at 9 am!!! to colour her hair. =_=" Coz' its her big day as 13/06/2010 was the renewal of my parents marriage vow in church.
After dyeing her hair, went to salun to style her ( and my) hair. hehe..
Went down to Subang for lunch, had bak kut teh. Went to Subang Parade for mom's complimentary Lancome make up appointment.
Prepare for Church wedding vow of parents.

Monday :
Left for hostel with sis at 9.30am. Met Kean Lee at Kelana LRT station.
Went back hostel for the last time to settle some stuff. Got into an arguement with the s***** hostel lady guard who ask me to leave my sis outside of hostel as she didn't have her original IC with her ( she only had her laminated/coloured IC) .
Went to Sungai Wang to walk and shop with sis and Kean Lee. Bought a new baby Syrian Hamster (but died 2 days later due to unknown reason)
Had loads of fun ^^

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday :
Woke up about noon time, ate simple lunch, watch at least 2 movies, didn't really go online, went check out for some part time job. GOt a good paying one by recommendation of a Friend. Did not start job straight away tho as I STILL WANT TO REST.

Friday (today, 18/06/2010) :
Went out with Kean Lee to 1UTAMA. Followed mom out.
Dad was PMS-ing.
Had fun walking whole of 1U. spend 8 hours there.lolz.
Bought a but cat ear for sis for only RM5, Bought a big cute octopus at the bargain corner of precious thots for only RM20. Bought a nice fitting slacks at Amour for RM39.90.
Needed the slacks coz' the only Padini slacks i had was literally dropping off my hips......

Anyway, good 1st week spent. Except for the next shitty* part.

I was reminded by my dad to find out more about my degree courses and what financial options that are available since Monday. OBVIOUSLY i lazed around at home and didn't go find out stuff as was told and thus he PMSed on me on Thursday and kept his bad mood till Friday and talked shit* about me thinking about going dating only and bringing up about wanting to get married early and forget about my education topic. WTH!!!

I kept quiet and that is what i do best. I SHUT UP. How am I to talk to some one who won't even listen and keep barking????? If you are going to raise your voice, and go red in the face and stare at me with the 'ohh so intimidating' eyes, well, don't bother, I won't speak up.
It is NOT cool to talk with the volume and make someone be afraid of you. Trust me, I'll end up closing myself up from you. so I let him talk and shout whatever he wants.

For goodness sake!!! WHY contradict yourself?!?! You were the one who told me that its normal for me to get into a relationship and yes you did state your PERSONAL opinion very clearly that you would prefer me not to get into any relationship. But what the heck, I am already in it. and I DID NOT SAY that I WILL NOT go find out about my degree courses and all. I need time to do so ok?!?!? And only 1 week has passed. Why can't you just let me enjoy my 1 week of holiday? Isit so hard for you to encourage me? Isit so hard so say positive words like "ok, enjoy yourself", "ok, do you best" WITHOUT ADDING other stuff like "ok, enjoy yourself but don't forget what other stuff you are suppose to do etc.etc.etc" If you really must say such thing, can't you say it after?

What is the realistic expectation here? No dating until what?you're old?!?!?! The more you shout at me, the more I won't open up to you. How would you expect me to have a NORMAL conversation with you? which is why most of the time I choose to sush UP!

And yes I AM afraid of you. If not I would not be typing all these here.



I'm sorry for the harsh words I used here. This is how I have been feeling.

Don't like the way I express, I don't care.

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