Chocolates ~ Ours to keep

I miss eating chocolates with you in lecture halls
I miss feeling special
to be the only one that you shared chocolates with
I miss those times back in College.
Wish we could eat chocolates together again...

I know we will
Oneday

*hearts*

23rd~ours to keep

I will finish strong

Many a times when things don't seem to go our way
We tend to think that we've got it bad
Its the same for me...

When things seem to come crushing down on me
when the pressure is on
I tend to think that I have got it worst..

But I thank God who works in marvelous ways..
A wonder of how a small motivational clip can open up my eyes
reminding me
that He will not throw you something that you can't handle.

In life,
there will always be situations thrown at us
to build us up
to build my character

I will have to try again
and again
and again..

No matter how hard it is
no matter how tough it seems
I will have to finish this race
and
I intend to finish it strong

That is a promise I make to myself

Sometimes I just wish that crying my heart out will make every hurt go away...

will make everything turn out right again...

But it'll never happen that way...

You said I don't have the passion in doing what I want..

You said you don't see that passion...

I'm never good enough...

It would help much if you'd give me more encouragements than criticism....

I've disappointed you with an average A level results...

thus I have to prove myself worthy of being sponsored by you to do my degree...

Reason why I don't tell you that I have a blog is because I don't know how much more criticism you'd have to add for me...

You said if I can't accept criticism and pressure then don't do it...

Do you know how much it sucks to hear that from someone you'd hope to recieve encouragement from??...

I stop talking...

When I know that I can't turn to you anymore...

You say things as if you know...

You assume things as if you know...

Then you go on saying ''Go ahead and tell everyone that I'm the cause of your failure'...

What are you trying to prove?...

Like you said, if I don't show my passion, you'll not sponsor me..

and thus you don't have to...

What the Doc said...

Latest update: Went to see a skin specialist

I've been having this rash like thing surfacing on my skin for quite some months and as usual I don't do anything about it until it starts to go red due to my excessive scratching.*booo*

So anyway, mom saw my rashes and she finally said to bring me to the skin specialist asap,reason coz' she's also been having this skin problem on her right leg since like I-don't-remember-when. So I got news that there's a good skin specialist at ss15( same row as Public Bank) and was adviced to call to make appointment as the queeue can get quite long. I didn't take that advice as I was thinking to myself, if I go early, I wouldn't have to wait long*brilliant*

I was so wrong! =.=''

That Saturday morning, I woke up around 8am-ish~ and our whole family left home about 8.40am! I drove so we reached ss15 and found a parking space about 9.15am. To my uttmost surprise, the clinic was already packed with patients! and the bussiness hour states that its opened from 9am to 4pm on Saturdays. Came 15minutes after opening and it was already packed!?! I asked the nurse how long would we have to wait before its our turn and the nurse said roughly 1hour or so. So okluh, 1 hour will pass by fast when we're doing something. We registered our names and went to Silva to eat breakfast.

About 10am we walked back to the clinic and ask how long more must we wait, nursie said maybe 30mins or so. So ok luh, we went to the nearby Watson to look at some stuff while enjoying the cool air-con. Half an hour later, we went back to the clinic and I specifically asked the nurse again how many patients more before its my turn. Nurse took quite some time to check and counted there were still 11 more patients to go. I was like @#%#$%#^!!!!

I came in at 9.15am, now its already 10.30am and you tell me I still got 11 more patients to go?!!! Ok fine, to kill some time me, sis and dad went to the nearby morning market in ss15 to shop for some groceries and to get myself familiarised to markets and raw food as I am doing the cooking nowadays. Mom didn't follow coz' she said her leg hurts when she walks.

We walked to the market, bear in mind it was the 10.30am morning sun which is HOT! Oh and just for the record, that day(Saturday) temperature was 36C. We walked and I saw that the stuff sold in the market was so much more expensive than the ones which I can get from KK's Pasar Tani or Hypermarket. Some examples: Lemons!Selling at Rm1 to 1.20 per piece in the market, Rm0.69 to 0.89 from hypermarket ; Granny smith apple, Rm10 for 14(ss15), Rm10 for 20(KK Pasar Tani)

However I saw some interesting stuff. I saw a pinkish red banana! They called it pisang Udang, its sweet! Finally saw an actual brussel sprout..hehe..dad said brussel sprouts are expensive coz' cannot get here in M'sia as they require cool weather to grow. Indeed the brussel sprout sold in ss15 was expensive, Rm22 per kg!

Facts on Brussel Sprouts: Has cholesterol lowering compound! High in Vitamin K(good for blood clot); High in anti oxidant; Good for cancer prevention =D

After the market trip, we walked back to the clinic which was about 11.15am. Asked the nurse another time and still got 5 more patients to go. =.='' Was finally called in about 11.45am.

Doc used a big magnifying glass to observe the rashes on my arm and he quickly concluded that I have eczema and continued saying that it could be hereditary. So I was thinking who has it..hmm..anyway Doc gave a 2 type of pills(one for morning, and one for night consume) and 2 type of cream(one for morning and one for night application). Doc asked me not to use Detol or Protex body wash as they're harsh for my skin, instead he asked me to use Dove which is mild on my skin.

Interesting advice given: For those who has eczema, after care of skin is uttmost important. Shower with cold water to soothe the itch and use moisturisers.

Interesting facts that I found out: The best way to trap moiture on skin is to apply the medicated cream and moisturisers within the 3 minutes after bath. Purpose of applying moisturisers is to retain the moisture from a shower onto the skin, so that the skin can stay moist. =D

Total bill for me is Rm115. To me its reasonable coz'
1.Its a specialist
2.Consultation fees is only Rm30
3. four types of medication for Rm85 which I can see the results within first application.

So yeah, Like I said, I could see my skin healing within the first application. I'm uber happy bout it =D The next appointment I have to make it to see Dr. G!..hehe

Lotsa Love and cheers! <3

Dorment NOT anymore!

My darling bloggie!

I've missed you!!!..hehehe...

Yesh yes I do realise I've been dorment for like 3 full months (July, August, September). Why? Its because I didn't have the mood to update my blog eventhough alot of events had happened. Why no mood? Its coz' of the little mood spoiler that happened one week after my A levels exam which I did blog about just a few post below.

Anyway I suddenly thought of blogging again is because of my dad. Yes, he does has a good amount of influence on me, influence to either totally spoil my mood or to push me to think and do something. You see, my dad found out that lil' sista has a blog and sis got all upset bout' it coz' to her, a blog is meant to be something private and kinda of a ''no parents are allowed'' area. Dad was happy and glad to have found her blog and was talking bout' it. And of course dad did encourage me to start a blog, start writing about my interested course and about my new found hobby ecetera. Then he goes on saying ' A blog is for people to read and see, if you don't want others to read your blog means you have something to hide."

So I was thinking to myself, should I start a new blog writing all about my hobby and interest and keep this blog with my real expressed feelings in the shadows? I came to a conclusion of a NO, I will not start a new blog, I will continue on with this current blog. This is my blog and this is where I express my discomfort, my dislike, my anger and my happiness. Everyone is free to read it and leave a comment but don't come judging me if you don't like the way I express or write about you or who-so-ever. Period. I have nothing to hide. Thats what I can say. I will reveal my blog to those who I want to when I think its the right time. As for now, If my parents or whoever relatives read my blog by accident then so be it.

So what happened during these 3 months...hmm...

July..
July went by not so pleasantly. As what I can remember there was tension going around between me and my parents regarding my degree course and my relationship and me finding a job. At the end, I got a teaching job at Xiao Dou Dou which pays quite well.

August..
I volunteered at Touch and Grow Community Support(TGCS) teaching special children for 2 months (August and September). I really enjoyed teaching those children, they are very special indeed.
Our Youth, Sword Squad had Pyjamas Night this month and Kean Lee joined us! I was of course happy that he could join us and that he can get to know our crazy youths..xD

September...
Went to Popular bookfest and bought a few books to read. One of which is a book regarding nutrition, quite interesting I must say. I'll write more on those in a new entry. Dad bought me a baking book and I've manage to try out quite a number of recipes and still counting =D. Will definately blog on those in a new entry =D

Those are just the summary of what had happened during the past 3 months..hehe...and the most important update is that I changed my hair style! =D

Ta-da!

11/06/2010

Ahh~ the not so sweet habit of procastination..

Yea I know, I know, been MIA-ing for a while since my last post eventho I'm actually quite free to blog everyday as I've got nothing much to do but to stay at home, sleep till noon, watch movie, eat, do house work and occasionally exercise. BUT the thing is, I ain't got the mood to blog due to certain mood issues as you can read in my previous post.
Anyways, it seems like today I've got the mood to blog. So I've decided to blog about Friday (11/06/2010).

Here is the entry for...

11th June 2010,

I'm sure many of you local readers out there have been to Genting Highlands at least once or twice. I personally have been there more than 3 times. and all of those times, the only reason I have plans of going up to Genting Highland is to go into their theme park and well of course enjoy and scream my heart out on the rides.

Today was different, the plan of going up to Genting with Kean Lee for a one day trip was suggested on Wednesday, planned a solid plan on Thursday and went up there on Friday. So it was kind of impromtu thing.

Both of us had the same idea in mind before we shared it with one another. We both thought about going up to Genting to just to walk around, enjoy the fresh air up there, look at the other attraction of Genting besides its theme park, enjoy one another company and of course capture beautiful memories together.

And the plan for Friday was taking LRT to Gombak station, buy a bus and cable car package ticket up to Genting. Walk around, take pictures, go into shops around Genting as most of the time I was always rushing to get into the theme park.

You know, I'm one of those who love to keep myself busy, fill in my time with activities, make sure that I have things to do everytime and feel in control just so that I can feel accomplished. However one of the thing that Kean Lee taught me was to learn to take a step back, observe and let things flow. The beauty of life cannot be seen and felt if we bury our head into what we want, it can be seen and felt if we learn to slow down and look at our surrounding, step out of our busy schedule for a moment and see what we're missing out. A level have really rob us of our time and the people around us. We're stuck in our own little world of A levels exams, not knowing what is going on in the world out there, not even knowing the activities going around TARC.

Anyway, we got ourselves up at Genting by 10.30am. The first thing I did when we arrived was that I dragged Kean Lee into the souvenier shop and got my sis, his sis and my mom some souveniers. hehehe.
Then we walked around Genting, saw that there were other hotels besides Awana and Theme Park Hotel.(All the while I really thought there were only those hotels). The Lobby of the other hotels were more posh and they have leather sofa's for guests to sit on which also mean that the room rates are exquisite. It was an eye opener for me coz' whenever I do stay over at Genting, the rooms are usually from the 2 hotels I mentioned. Anyway, we just walked blindly, exploring routes of how Genting manage to connect the whole place... and Kean Lee got hungry thus we went looking for food. To our surprise, there were buffet deals at RM27 per person, eat all you can. But we weren't up for that that day so the most worth eating food was KFC. And indeed, the chicken was bigger (size) and they have cucumbers..hehe..eat till jelak. We sat at the indoor theme park area for quite some time, just to look at the people around us, the family, the atmosphere.


We went to took some flower pictures and also took some pics with the flowers ;


Went to an open area which was like a balcony, it was windy, cloudy and definately nice.
Didn't stay at the area for long as it was packed with people, some even smoking.

Another garden, and yes, uniquely twisted tree =D
We sat around Genting for awhile more and left for home at about 6pm. Reach hostel about 9pm due to jam packed situation at the skyway cable car and the scheduled bus time.

There are some things that we both enjoy in doing like looking at the sky, feeling the breeze hence somethings we have in common in, Which make us enjoy even more what we actually love doing by Being able to do what you love and share it with your partner.

All in all, This trip up was definately a memorable and beautiful one.

Not so pleasant update I guess...

Hey peeps!

Its been one week since I've officially finished my Cambridge A level course. *Yippy!!!*

During this duration of one week, I spent some of my time with Kean Lee, some with lil' Sis, some watching lame movies at home and lots of sleeping till noon. =D

My past week plans

Thursday :
Last day of exam, went for badminton from 4pm till 6pm, tired ourselves out..hehe..but it was fun.
Went back hostel to freshen up and left for Pasar malam at 8pm!! =D
Went to Wangsa Walk straight after pasar malam at 10.45pm, wanted to catch a late night movie. Bought Prince of Persia ticket at 11.30pm. AWESomE movie!!! Worth watching. Movie ended at about 1.30am. Went back to hostel and snuuzzzzzzzzZZZZz

Friday :
Woke up early at about 8am(I don't even wake up so early for exam!!!...ok fine, I don't even sleep during exam..lolz)!
Prepared to go to GENTING!!!
Caught the 9.30 am bus to genting from gombak LRT station. Took skyway cable car up to Genting. Was sms-ing my parents throughout the whole trip about me going to genting..they were very paranoid. Understandable.
Didn't went into the themepark. Walk around and enjoy the air up in Genting. WIll elaborate more in a new post.

Saturday :
Left hostel about 11am, took LrT down to bangsar to cut my hair, then went to MidValley!
Parents fetch me home from hostel, hostel room was left bare as it was given to me.
Will elaborate more in a new post too ^^

Sunday :
Finally home!!! Was woken by mom at 9 am!!! to colour her hair. =_=" Coz' its her big day as 13/06/2010 was the renewal of my parents marriage vow in church.
After dyeing her hair, went to salun to style her ( and my) hair. hehe..
Went down to Subang for lunch, had bak kut teh. Went to Subang Parade for mom's complimentary Lancome make up appointment.
Prepare for Church wedding vow of parents.

Monday :
Left for hostel with sis at 9.30am. Met Kean Lee at Kelana LRT station.
Went back hostel for the last time to settle some stuff. Got into an arguement with the s***** hostel lady guard who ask me to leave my sis outside of hostel as she didn't have her original IC with her ( she only had her laminated/coloured IC) .
Went to Sungai Wang to walk and shop with sis and Kean Lee. Bought a new baby Syrian Hamster (but died 2 days later due to unknown reason)
Had loads of fun ^^

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday :
Woke up about noon time, ate simple lunch, watch at least 2 movies, didn't really go online, went check out for some part time job. GOt a good paying one by recommendation of a Friend. Did not start job straight away tho as I STILL WANT TO REST.

Friday (today, 18/06/2010) :
Went out with Kean Lee to 1UTAMA. Followed mom out.
Dad was PMS-ing.
Had fun walking whole of 1U. spend 8 hours there.lolz.
Bought a but cat ear for sis for only RM5, Bought a big cute octopus at the bargain corner of precious thots for only RM20. Bought a nice fitting slacks at Amour for RM39.90.
Needed the slacks coz' the only Padini slacks i had was literally dropping off my hips......

Anyway, good 1st week spent. Except for the next shitty* part.

I was reminded by my dad to find out more about my degree courses and what financial options that are available since Monday. OBVIOUSLY i lazed around at home and didn't go find out stuff as was told and thus he PMSed on me on Thursday and kept his bad mood till Friday and talked shit* about me thinking about going dating only and bringing up about wanting to get married early and forget about my education topic. WTH!!!

I kept quiet and that is what i do best. I SHUT UP. How am I to talk to some one who won't even listen and keep barking????? If you are going to raise your voice, and go red in the face and stare at me with the 'ohh so intimidating' eyes, well, don't bother, I won't speak up.
It is NOT cool to talk with the volume and make someone be afraid of you. Trust me, I'll end up closing myself up from you. so I let him talk and shout whatever he wants.

For goodness sake!!! WHY contradict yourself?!?! You were the one who told me that its normal for me to get into a relationship and yes you did state your PERSONAL opinion very clearly that you would prefer me not to get into any relationship. But what the heck, I am already in it. and I DID NOT SAY that I WILL NOT go find out about my degree courses and all. I need time to do so ok?!?!? And only 1 week has passed. Why can't you just let me enjoy my 1 week of holiday? Isit so hard for you to encourage me? Isit so hard so say positive words like "ok, enjoy yourself", "ok, do you best" WITHOUT ADDING other stuff like "ok, enjoy yourself but don't forget what other stuff you are suppose to do etc.etc.etc" If you really must say such thing, can't you say it after?

What is the realistic expectation here? No dating until what?you're old?!?!?! The more you shout at me, the more I won't open up to you. How would you expect me to have a NORMAL conversation with you? which is why most of the time I choose to sush UP!

And yes I AM afraid of you. If not I would not be typing all these here.



I'm sorry for the harsh words I used here. This is how I have been feeling.

Don't like the way I express, I don't care.

Got something to say, do comment.

Me & You ~

23rd of May...

...Let us continue this journey together
Hand in hand
Heart as one

Forever Kean Lee & Carmille

Ex-tinc-ti-on

Food for thought

What if an extinct animal was cloned back to life?

Wouldn't that mean extinction is not forever?

Which also means that extinction will not mean the same anymore..

For the early risers

The Lawyer and the Chinese

An American lawyer and a Chinese
are sitting next to each other on a long flight.
The lawyer is thinking that all Chinese are so dumb that
he could get over on them, easy.
So the lawyer asks if the Chinese would like to play a fun game.

The Chinese is tired and just wants to take a nap,
so he politely declines, and tries to catch a few winks.
The lawyer persists, and says that the game is a lot of fun.

I ask you a question, and if you don't know the answer, you pay me only $5;
you ask me one, and if I don't know the answer, I will pay you $500, he says.

This catches the Chinese's attention and to keep the lawyer quiet,
he agrees to play the game.

The lawyer asks the first question.
"What's the distance from The Earth to the Moon?"
The Chinese doesn't say a word, reaches in his pocket,
pulls out a five-dollar bill, and hands it to the lawyer.

Now, it's the Chinese's turn.
He asks the lawyer,
"What goes up a hill with three legs, and comes down with four?"
The lawyer uses his laptop and searches all references he could find on the Net.
He sends e-mails to all the smart friends he knows,
all to no avail.

After one hour of searching he finally gives up.

He wakes up the Chinese and hands him $500.
The Chinese pockets the $500 and goes right back to sleep.
The lawyer is going nuts not knowing the answer.

He wakes the Chinese up and asks,
'Well, so what goes up a hill with three legs and comes down with four?
The Chinese reaches in his pocket,
hands the lawyer $5 and goes back to sleep......


Moral of the story *Don't mess with the Chinese =D

Lame Amusement ...

Suggestion for how to amuse yourself...


Say nothing when you answer the phone...
They rang you...They can speak first


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Want a better suggestion?...

When a car stop for you at a zebra crossing, run up and pat their hood...
to show your appreciation =D


*I doubt you'll have a chance to do so..
no Malaysian would actually stop for you at any zebra crossing.....

Just something for the lazy generation >.< ...

Start your day with laughter =D

Some jokes for the heart

A teacher asked a four-year-old what his name was.


" Spider Man " the four-year-old replied.


"No, I mean your real name my dear" said the teacher.


The child apologised. "Oh, I'm sorry, Its Peter Parker."

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A man was rushing for an important meeting and

he couldn't find a parking space.

Looking up to the heaven, he said,

"Lord, take pity on me. If you find me a parking space,

I pormise to go to church every Sunday

for the rest of my life and

give up swearing."

Miraculously, a spot opened right in front of the building.

The man looked up and said,

" Never mind. I found one."

-cheerios-

Scattered thoughts

Just the other day, I was having my usual chat with Kean Lee. This time we were talking about our course mates, what they want to pursue after their A levels.

Whenever one chooses to enter the science stream, their ambition usually don't stray far. They're usually into the medical, research field.

Considering we're both of the science stream, no doubt most of our course mates have similar pathway that they wanted to pursue : medical field. Whenever we ask them what they wanted to study, most will answer Doctor, Dentistry, Pharmacy. These 3 courses seem to be of the most popular choices.

Some who at the beginning wanted to pursue MD, when asked later in the year, they changed their mind to pursuing Dentistry or Pharmacy. Asked them why the change, some said that they didn't want to 'play' with life ; some said that the study period was just too long ; others said Dentistry earns more than a doctor considering the time spent on studies and the working hours.

I'm now talking in the viewpoint of the science stream only. These are my point of views.

There are only a few predictable reasons on why most students decide to pursue a Medical, Dentistry or Pharmacy degree.

1. High pay, good income = good future
2. Status and pride
3. Parents wish of them to pursue this pathway

The title Doctor used to be an honourable and noble one. Like what Kean Lee told me, the world have distorted the main reason of becoming a doctor. The noble reason for one to wanting to be a doctor is for the good cause, wanting to help the sick. But now as the world become more materialistic, more money minded, individual pursue a doctor career is mainly due to the high income that they can get. Its more of a bussiness than a service to help the sick. Doctors are here to help heal the sick, what if the sick can't afford the medication, should doctors ignore them and let them die? Its a very subjective matter as there are many aspect to consider, from cost of the medicine to the equiptment needed to treat the sick.

Of course I'm not saying that those who want to be a doctor, they should go all out, use all their savings to treat the poor. Doctors too need to survive, they need to feed their family. What I meant is their heart, their mindset. What do they want to see? the sick being healed? or short consultation time = more money into their pocket? More community centered or more account centered?

Pharmacist, knowing all sorts of drugs in the market, doesn't really do good. Its scary actually knowing the effects of different chemicals. Anyway, we can't really make the world a better place with more drugs/medicine. Consuming different chemicals, for all we know, we're bringing onto ourselves who knows what kind of long term side effects. Then again, we cannot run away from having to consume chemicals as our world now are made of loads of artificial food filled with preservatives.

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Sometimes it does make me wonder what are we after. What make us contented, satisfied. A higher paid job which rob us of our time and youth? or having a happy family with income that can sustain our daily needs will do.

Especially for you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

KEAN LEE

DEAREST


Hehehe...this blog post is especially for you

Let the month of May be the most memorable month of the whole year


Cherish every moment spent with you

*hearts*

Thursday~

Hey peeps,

So this is just a little update on what happened on Thursday (6/5/10).

I came down all the way from college to Bandar Sunway just to go for a lingerie warehouse sale.

Was it worth the trip? Of Course Yes! It was damn worth it. I can finally throw away my old scarlet bras which all of them are already deformed and rusty (the support wire) and I got myself a good 6 sets of new undergarments of Pierre Cardin, Young Hearts brand for only RM64!!!

A big shout out to sister Charity Choo for the info of the warehouse sale! Thank you! And I did enjoy myself shopping with Alex and Charity. =D Will definately want more of the sister shopping/blabbering time, after my exam of course...

Anyway, after the warehouse shopping spree, Lionel dropped me back to Pyramid so that I can meet up with Kean Lee (yes he followed me all the way from hostel). We had BBQ Plaza for lunch , then we went window shopping for awhile before we went back to hostel.

Kean Lee wanted to get a new pair of earphones. So we went into Sony Centre at the new wing to browse through their selections of earphones. Anyway I saw something so familiar yet different. It was the new Sony Walkman W series.
This is the newer model. According to the store manager, it was released in the market on 5/5/10. So its quite new. Apparently its 'more' water resistant than the previous one. So everything is the same except for the water resistant part. Of course it's not meant to be submerged in water for a long time aka you cannot listen to it while swimming ; its just an extra point for those who sweat alot and I mean drenched wet whenever they exercise. The design differ slightly than the 1st edition. To me, this new one is more squarish and I still favour my 1st edition design. I shall just be bias.

So yeah, it's just a chill off time from all the studying and honestly, it was good to be near home. I've been away from home for more than 2 weeks and still counting. Goodness sake, I'm like the only person at home who haven't seen the 'masterpiece' of the renovation of our main gate. Argh..not anytime soon i guess...won't be home until my exam ends which is until 2nd week of June. I do miss home and the people back home!

Don't forget me!!!

*hugs & kisses!*

Giggles!!!

Sony Walkman W series

A beauty isn't it?

I was officially the proud owner of one of this babe on 11/1/10. How I came to have it, well it was an early birthday surprise from Kean Lee for my 19th birthday. I've kept this birthday present from everyone up till date. It never left hostel, actually it did, once. Kean Lee brought it home for one weekend. Anyway, he got to know that I liked this gadget coz' once when we went out, I was drooling over it when we visited one of the Sony Centre. To me, this is like the coolest invention ever! A wireless walkman!

I didn't expect him to buy it for me though. Which is why I said I was really surprised when he placed a big package infront of me 6 days before my birthday. I've been using it when I do my laundry, dishes and doing maths in hostel. Oh! and it also helps me to concentrate better in my studies when my room mate is watching chinese drama series on her laptop. She never uses headphones so the drama can get quite annoying and distracting.

When it first came out, I wanted to have it coz' it would really accompany me with my jogging. But since having it, I've never brought it out with me to jog. Anyway I haven't been jogging since my last run which was Standard Chartered KL marathon 2009. I'm hoping to pick up jogging again though after my A levels and hopefully able to rope Kean Lee into jogging too. He dislike exercising! Which is a big No NO for me.

I would recommend this for those who jogs or cycle especially as it is real convenient. Oh and housewifey too! Good company while doing housework alone! hehehe! One drawback is their 2GB capacity. How I wish they would come out with a version with bigger capacity.

-XoXo-

Its a Sunny sunny Day~

Rise and Shine people!

Its a bright and sunny day!

with the afternoon sun warming up the Earth!

.....

3 more days before April 2010 pass us by

Time is ticking and wasting away

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The pressure is on

exam is nearing

Everybody getting stressed up

We're gonna be evaluated.

....

Life is always about making decision

everymove we make will be observed

every decision is critically analysed, disected, criticised

....

What are we chasing after?

Money and Fame?

or

Happiness and Serenity?

....Just a random post...

Springing April~

Its raining heavily outside now..I'm currently stuck in the CITC (Communication IT Centre), can't seem to go anywhere got of the rain. So I'm here reading some blogs, reading wiki and updating.

I know I've been MIA-ing for quite some time. Been catching up on my studies. I've got a dateline to meet. I hope to update often though as I've got alot of things that I want to post but like I've said previously, I just ain't got the time.

Kean Lee parents took me out for dinner on Sunday. I didn't want to follow but his mom insisted. She was really nice. They took me out for dinner three times to date since last year. Kean Lee said his mom really likes me, whenever he gets into the car, the 1st or 2nd line is always asking bout' me. Mainly whether they need to takeaway dinner for me. Once, they purposely made a trip back to hostel to send me dinner even though they wanted to go out shopping after their dinner/ before sending Kean Lee back to hostel. I always insist that I didn't want dinner but I guess his mom is as persistent as me.

Anyway we ate Bak Kut Teh. YUMM!!! I've been craving for a proper yummy meal since my parents didn't came down last weekend to visit me. I really appreciated it when his mom insisted that I join them for dinner.

Note: His parents doesn't know bout' us yet.

Ahh~ I feel really really blessed.


*hearts*

4 Him

Recently I've been listening to their songs. Eventhought this album is not their latest album but I was able to purchase them and now I am just drawn to some of their songs. I guess these songs just spoke to me at this point of time as some songs spoke to me in the past..

I can't seem to elaborate much.

These are some of my fav. songs in this album.

The basics of life
For future generations
A strange way to save the world
Great Awakening
The voice of God

MooooWeeee!!

Ahh yess...about my ice skating plan that I mentioned in the previous post.

Well, after my trials, I did not get to ice skate (unfortunately). My dearest said that it would probably be a better decision if we were to go ice skating after our A levels as we will not be bogg down with the thoughts of having to finish our studies and the thought of exam is round the corner. I thought and I thought...and yeah, he is right, ice skating can wait. So my venting on going ice skating after trials was just a venting of thought after all.

However, we did went for movies! hehe..actually one movie only since after trials. We watched...

How to train your dragon.. Not in 3D..heh..

Since I read 2 movie review and both of the review said that it was worth watching and I thought why not since I needed a movie which offers a good laugh. But at the end of the movie, I thought it was ok nia. It was funny but it was a forgetable movie unlike Iron man which I can watch over and over again and still laugh at the same scene ( which seldom happen).

My advice before watching this movie, DO NOT watch the trailer! I repeat! DONOT watch the trailer or it'll just spoil the movie like how it did for me. And well, just buy a DVD and watch it at home. Not worth the money to watch in the cinema. Save the money for Iron Man 2 =D

Midnight ~

Headache!!!

Seriously, I'm having a headache now. Actually since just now before I went for youth. Anyway took a panadol, hope it'll go away soon coz' I've got so much to do.

And my laptop touch pad is PMS-ing on me again!

Honestly I was kinda heated up just before going for youth.

I do realise that my internal exams results have been not up to the standard, and I do realise that I've got one more month only before my external exam starts, and I do also realise that I've got alot to cover to be well prepared for my exams. But that doesn't mean that my daily activities are just study, eat and sleep!

.....These were what he said...

" I just don't understand why did you choose to go to an event when your exam is so near"

" You should know whether you should go to youth or stay back to study"

" why do you want to come back home? Can you study better at home or in hostel?"

"Life is not just about studies alone!"...

" and you are right! Life is not just about studies alone but knowing that time is not at your side, you should know what your priorities are! Some things are to be sacrificed"

" You must have a reason with everything that you decide to do"

Yes I do agree that some things we do, we must have a reason but some things we just do out of spontaneousity or we just want to do it.

Or in other words, just accept it that I'm unable to think as deeply as you do of why I do some things. My mind is just not develop that way/ capability of mature thinking is not as much as yours.

Haih.......

What did we learnt in youth today?

Is there anything that is impossible to forgive?

To me, as far as I can say there is nothing in this world that is impossible to be forgiven for. For time will heal all wounds. I did experience and wrap myself in hatred and grudge against someone and I thought that I will not be able to forgive that person for hurting me and caused me so much pain within but like I said, time and prayers heal all wounds. I learnt to let go and forgive and of course, move on.

I realise that holding on to that grudges and hatred will only eat me up from within and make me a bitter person. Thus letting go is best solution to free youself from the bitterness. And I must say, it is not as easy as it sound.


Happy forgiving =D


p.s : what was written above above was just my venting of my thoughts and emotions =)

Aloha~

Aww man! One week has passed and my scheduled post was not even posted!..ish...wonder where went wrong...hmmm..

I've got so many updates that i want to post up but I just ain't got the time. The whole of last week was study study study for me. Even yesterday which was a Friday, I spent the whole night till morning studying....

Haih...What to do, my trial results suck till the max.But I'm not giving up at all! Now I'm putting my full effort to finish studying all my topics for each and every subject that I'm taking. Hoping to finish everything before end of this month so that I can focus entirely on my past years and answering questions.

Let me just give you a brief idea on how much I've got to study.

Biology - 10 big chapters and I've only covered 5 so far.
Chemistry - 25 ( big and small chapters) and I've only covered 8 chapters.
Physics - 20 chapters and I've covered 17 chapters ( Thank Goodness!)
Mathematics - Applied Maths covered all
Pure Maths all except Differentiation & Integration topic (which is a big topic!)

I've didn't even break it down for you yet. I'll spare you guys on the details unless you really want to know what I've got to study.

I'm sure some would ask ' Why put in your full effort now when you've got one whole year of last year to put in your full effort' Well for that question, all I can say is that every student will have their downfall..I did not put in enough efford..thats why.....

Ahh well, this is what you get when you sign up for A levels. So peeps, think carefully before going into any course.


Cheerios

^^

Me no Stable...

Hi people!

I actually finished my trials on the 31st of March and I really did want to update asap, infact I wanted to update on Friday at least but on Friday, Bloggers gave me a hard time. I couldn't sign in! They said I had an error and for which a computer noob like me would not know what to do, so I just shut down my computer and hope that it'll work the next day and what do ya know, It worked!

So how was trials? It was face smacking, head bangingly TOUGH. Honestly I do not know what to say to people whenever they ask me about my studies. "Ok.. I'm tryinng my best to do well..pushing hard..." Always giving the same answer. And how much can people say? " Ah, don't worry, you'll do fine. ' I'm sure it'll be alright.''

Everyone need encouragements and even more at certain point of time. I certainly am one of those who needs encouragement and not being pushed or given the reverse phsycology game.

I know I have to study harder and smarter. I know time is not on my side knowing that my finals is in 5 weeks time. I know I have to put in 10 hours of studies if i have to. I know I need to be aggresive and take all the opportunity that i have. I know I must start taking initiatives. I know.......

What is the point of gaining everything in the world and loosing my own soul?

What is the point of focusing all your years in climbing the corporate world to become a CEO and end up looking back and realise that you did not do anything at all.

What is the point of pursueing your career and neglect your family. when you finally realise it, its too late.

Whats the point of studying so hard??? just to get that qualification to be able to get the scholarship? to be able to go to desired, top Universities?

I do not want to lose myself! Lose the one I love!

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Sometimes I just keep quiet is not because I got nothing to say. Some things I do not say because you are you.

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Tommorow is EASTER.

John 3 :16 - For God so love the world that He gave His only beloved son that whomsoever believe in Him will not perish and have eternal life.

I hate myself for forgetting Easter. I hate myself for being so absorbed into my studies and all I know is to study. I hate myself for neglecting Him...

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I do know that not everybody has the gift to encourage as the same to not everybody have that gift to console someone. I know I don't..

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Global Climate Meltdown!!!

Its SO FREAKING hot Hot HOTTT! back here in Kota Kemuning!!!

Those who do know me well,
I feel cold, chilled easily
and I mean Easily/ UBER sensitive cold receptors

Back in TARC hostel,
It rains(pouring rain) almost every single day there
In the late morning- afternoon, it does get super hot
BUT in the evening - night - next morning,
the temperature DO drop like crazy
I have to wear my sweater even without the fan on
and even my room floor gets cold!
I'm seriously not exaggerating

Anyway,
Since my source says it rains almost everyday back here in KK,
I thought the temperature would also drop at night

but NOO~
There is still the HOT and STUFFY feeling in the air
LUCKILY I have the luxury of air-con
If not, I think I would soak myself in the swimming pool to sleep...


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Who is to blame for this crazy temperature?
I don't remember Malaysia being this hot 5 years ago
Part of the migration of Malaysians to other countries is due to our country's overall temperature rise beside the 'other' factors

I do realise that
switching on the air- con everyday definately does not help reduce global warming
and Printing lots of photocopied notes/books! do not help save the trees

We ourselves cause this global warming
but we only know how to point fingers and blame
blame the authorities for not taking actions
blame for not educating public
blame ____ for burning rubbish in the open
blame ____ for ______________
Most of us know how to fill in the blanks

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I know this seems like its half hanging
I guess I'm just letting the heat affect me
...heh....

Food for thought then =)

Picka boo!

What is wrong with some people nowadays? Can't they read that female dormitories are strictly for females only???

I'm fine with you wanting to bring over your male counterpart/companion/partner/boyfriend for a visit to your room. I'm not too ok with your male 'friend' staying overnight in your room, anyway its not my room so its non of my business. BUT it gets not ok at all when your male 'friend' starts using the FEMALE common toilet ( where all females on that floor shares the same toilet to bathe and do whatever that female does) to do your Male business. And what was worse is that the female friend actually washes the male friend clothes and hangs it out in the open just outside her door.

So if you still don't get what i'm talking about, its actually my dorm next door neighbour. You see, since beginning of the year, her boyfriend has been going over to her room and since then he's been making himself at home, sleeping over her place often, using the female toilet to do his business and his girlfriend even washes his clothes! Yes! it is true! Once i was washing my laundry and coincidently she was beside me washing her his clothes! I was surprise to see that she was so open in washing his clothes in the toilet when I and other females dorm mates were around. She even hung his clothes outside her room even with his underwear! I was literally like 'WTH?!?!'

The toilet part to me was really tooo much of him. At first I did not believe my floormate who told me she often sees him in the female toilet and there was once when she was bathing, he came in to do his business in the other cubicle. How did she know it was a 'he'? She said he cleared his troat, the clearing voice sounded very deep and male-ish. Anyway quite recently, I just came back from college and so very unfortunate, I saw him coming out of her room, he made eye contact with me (aka saw me) and nonchalantly he just turn and went into the toilet! I was dumb struck, ticked off, disgusted!

Come on! If you want to go to your girlfriend's room, please do it discretely ( Yes, he walks up the stairs to her room on the 3rd floor as if he was going back to his own room). If you want to use the female common toilet, make sure there is no other girls around before using it. For goodness sake, non of use want to see a guy using the toilet that we ( girls) use to bathe!

Common sensely think, what do you think others would think about you or look at you when they know that your boyfriend is practically living with you? Honestly the sight of him( my neighbours boyfriend) just disgust me. I have no respect of her at all. Where is your dignity?

Oh by the way, even her ( my neighbour) roommate brings her boyfriend to her room too very openly.

I guess I'm just enlightening you people about some things that are happening around hostel especially my floor.

Anyway, my trials starts today at 8.30am ( heh ..i know i know i should be sleeping now) but i'm just to darn excited! xD..so I won't be updating often.

Wish me luck!

Toodles!

Lotsalove!

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Ice skating

Ice skating.

The title says it all.
I just have this sudden urge to go ice skating...
oh what about tomorrow then!

Hold on a minute, I can't!
Why?
Coz'
1. my trials is next week
2. I haven't finish studying
3. Its freaking expensive to skate during the school holidays
4. school holidays = crowds ( hate squeezing with em')

Bah!!
I guess i'll just go after my trials.
I WILL GO after my trials!
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I just caught a glimps of a figure skating competition video clip on tv and i had flash back on how good it used to feel when i was skating and the wind was blowing on my face, skating gracefully, feeling confident and fresh! Thats when i had this 'craving'/urge to want to skate.

I can't exactly remember when was the 1st time i ice skate but i do remember how i know how to ice skate. It all started from roller blading. I did not learnt how to do so alone. It was actually my dad who taught me to roller blade on a badminton court! And from there, he brought me to the ice skating ring and slowly hone my skating skills. The best part is that my dad did not know how to skate at all! neither on roller blades nor ice skates. Whenever he was teaching me, he was wearing slippers and i was with the skates. Even in the skating ring, he was outside the ring instructing me, guiding me. How cool is that!

The secret to him being able to teach me how to skate even though he did not know how to is his observing skills. Never underestimate the power of the observing skills and I admire my dad for that! =D

I am very proud that i am able to ice skate and even more proud when i told them that my dad was the one who taught me to skate even thought he himself did not know how to. Of course my ice skating skills cannot be compared to those figure skaters who took lessons from professionals. I cannot do stunts like a hop or a spin but at least i know my basics very well.

I find figure skating a very graceful sport. Its just so beautiful watching professional skaters glide on the ice, moving so 'swiftly'. Even though i cannot do stunts but i enjoy skating and feeling the wind on my face and fantasising being able to move like how figure skaters are able to. Its just a whole new and different experience for me.





P.S : Dear, i want to go ice skating *puppy eyes*

home!! =D

Today is not exactly Sunday but i'm finally home. and i'm on my comfy bed now blogging.

Sunday~

Woke up kinda late today about 12 noon ( i slept quite late the day b4 so yeah....) After washing up, i took my time packing all my books and notes and tutorials. By the time i finish packing, it was already 3pm and somehow i just felt kinda slow in doing things/ tired so after packing i took my nap. I'm suppose to be studying but i was just too excited to go home. I lazed around and waited for my parents to pick me up for dinner.

I didn't had a good lunch, i had a box of chocolate milk and biscuits for lunch.. so i was kinda looking forward for a good dinner. Anyway, about 6.20pm, I went down to the canteen to meet up with kean lee and ate twisties (chezzy flavour) *Yumm!* =D

Spent some time just accompanying one another before we both leave for home. It was a beautiful evening i must say. The sky was hue blue with a tinge of orange sunset. Beautiful and mesmerising. We both do enjoy taking evening strolls together, feeling the wind in our face and the fresh air.

After we parted, i continue to wait for my parents while trying to read some biology. I was expecting them to arrive about 8pm but they came half an hour later. So, the plan was to eat a simple meal and go home. Dad drove us to a backlane restaurant where they were famous for their steam fish. If i'm not mistaken its in Raja Laut, Restaurant Ong Lai ( Goh Kee). We reached there about 9pm and it was full house as we still had to wait for a table. And by the time our food came, it was already 10pm! Anyway, the bill came up to rm155, 4 person ate for rm155! crazy wei..well, we ordered steam fish, prawns ( as big as my hand! actually my hands not that big so don't hav to be so shock..xD), vegetable, fried oysters and noodles. Each person had 2 prawns and I had 3 big prawns mainly coz' mom only ate 1. Seafood's usually the dishes that is costly. Anyway Its been quite some time since i had such yummy meal so i just wallopp whatever there is..heh..

So thats my day for Sunday. The best part for today was the food! hehe..well of course i did enjoy my little evening stroll and home sweet home =D

fluttery fluuu...hehe

Ahh ~ another day has come and gone. Its 4am, sunday morning! ( told ya my body clock is kinda out)..heh..

Today was another day of studying, eating and more studying with kean lee in hostel. Studying together, the sight of seeing our partner working hard for the little future and dream that we both hope for really encourages me to wanting to do the same to put in our best and not give up.

As for tomorrow, I will be going home for the week break before coming back to hostel again on the 21st of march to sit for my trials.

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I was once an Interact Club BOD and did organise International Understanding Day back then and I know how stressful and crazy it can get organising events. Anyway, I am quite proud of this year Interact Club BOD as they somewhat did a good job in marketing, advertising and running the I.U Day. Why do i say so? Coz' I did not attend the event at all but just by reading their blog, I can so feel their excitement, energy, enthusiasism and dedication in the making of the event. Therefore, I proudly introduce http://www.interactsmkss17.blogspot.com.
I find it interesting, knowing what they did just to raise funds etc. I had my times and they had theirs. Those were the days.

Anyways, I'm signing off now. I'm so looking forward to home and good home cooked food! I've been eating like biscuits and more biscuits and junks for my meals * yucks*
Nothing makes you miss home then staying away from home.

HOME SWEET HOME here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

Twinkles

Sometimes we're just so afraid what others might think of when they know that we're in a relationship with someone. When the phrase 'we're in love' is being used, people will often squint their eyes and ask'' what do you mean by in love?' 'are you really in love or isit just a moment of feeling happy and good being around with this somebody?' It is normal that when statement is being said, people will have questions flooding their head, wondering what makes you say so, why are you so sure that you're in love instead of just an infatuation? etc. Considering that people nowadays tend to abuse the word 'love'.

Adults especially our parents will usually be sceptical and thinks that young adults are incapable of juggling relationships and studies at the same time thus concluding to us that it is just not the right time to get into a relationship. So when is the right time to get into a relationship? After SPM? When we're in university? or after we've gotten a stable job and able to support ourselves then only we should start looking for our life partners?

I am not saying that all young adults are able to handle both relationship and studies at the same time but if we do not get into a relationship, experience the little cuts and bruises of loving someone, how are we to grow emotionally, mentally or grow in maturity? Telling us that it is not the right time isn't gonna help either. It will just leave us feeling unfair and even after we do get into a relationship, it is not easy to open up to our parents as deep inside, we do still want our parents support and advices to these matters of the heart.

Being in a relationship can either build you or break you at a certain point of time. When both are lovey-dovey, happily in each others arms, one will be glad that they have each other and often seem to think that 'they're made for each other'. However when the road gets bumpy, things doesn't seem to go well and characters starts to show, those who cannot endure and cannot take it will choose the easy way out which is the breakup. If life were that easy, which is to get into a relationship just because we get along well and have alot in common and breakup just as easily because of an argument or problem that arises and can't be solved , then where would commitment stand in and where would love fit in?

Being in a relationship,getting a life partner is not just having all the good times, its not just loving one another by holding hands, embracing but It is the beauty and the bumpy roads that strengthens the relationship. Getting through hard times and overcoming problems together, looking out for one another, enjoying everything that is done together, those are the memories that cannot be bought and erase just as it is.

People always say that love makes one blind, love makes you go 'cloud nine'.
Love makes the world seems like a better place.

Do share your thoughts if you have any. =D

Rambles from hostel canteen =D

The night doesn't seem that peaceful after all when your staying over the weekends in hostel.

I'm currently in the Hostel canteen area where i was suppose to be stuyding but i thought of utilising the facilities that is provided ( the wireless internet connection)...heh..

anyways, i'm not alone here, there are quite a number of people still up and awake, mostly using laptops and a small amount doing course work. There are some who come out from their rooms at weird hours (3am) just to go online.

Yes, I'm still awake at this hour of time ( 3.30am). Trials is just around the corner which is 23rd of march till end of the month. There is just so much to cover, so many things that need to be done. I've been staying up for the past 3 days just to study and this is my plan till next week. My body clock has somewhat been turn upside down but its ok coz' I'm burning as much midnight oil as possible now as I don't want to stay up during the exam period.

Hopefully i'm able to last till end of this month!

This is my table with books and my laptop sprawled all over. Most of it is not my books tho..heh

Nostalgy

My sister came into my room holding a very familiar magazine... she asked whether I'd want to read the latest school year book(2009). I wasn't too trilled or excited about looking through it but I just told her "ok, just leave it on my bed." and she was gone leaving magazine behind.

I know my pictures will not be in the magazine.. I know I have no memories being in SMK SS17 which is why i was disinterested in flipping through the pages of magazine which I know i have no part in it in year 2009. However, I was curious to see who was the head prefect(2009) and who was the editor(2009) for the magazine and partly I kinda wanted to ''take a break'' from doing my revision...heh..

It started with flipping through the pages, looking at the pictures only....
every passing pictures are people whom deem strangers to me or even if I did seen them before, they weren't people who I had memories with..

What caught my attention was when I was flipping through the class album section... I remembered that there were quite a number of friends who i knew who was studying form6 in my former school, so I took out my magnifying glass( not literally) and tried spotting people that I once knew.

Surprise Surprise (or maybe not so) I found those people whom some I knew back in primary school. Some did change, many still look the same. Wonder how they are doing now... Continue on my flipping of pages, I spotted my little sister in the form1 section. I must say, she looks adorable there..haha..

When I reached the senior page section, I felt so nostalgic, remembering back during my time (gosh I feel so old now) we'll bring our camera's to camwhore and our super tall class monitor will bring his Nikon DSL to shot and capture all the candid moments and memories..as I feel myself being absorbed back into my secondary school year once again, I looked through the magazine from the front page again and this time, really capturing what I am looking through..

I realised that this current year book is the 13th year book that was published. There and then i remembered back in form4, I was one of the producing committee for this year book. What a year it was..rushing deadlines(as usual) and post-poning deadlines(very common). As i flip the pages( this time i did it slowly), I reach the high achiever for spm where they did their interviewing of some of the top scorers (which I was not in it...>.<). The pictures that was posted looked very familiar indeed..they were my former classmates! Remembering back the laughter we shared, the silly things we( more of they) did in class..

those times where our class was usually picked to go for outings;

the times when I was the assistant secretary for Interact Club..organising the I.U Day outside of school;

going out for taekwondo tournaments which gave me a different experience of taekwondo,staying back in school for intensive training (plus get to skip class);

went for chess tournaments too and getting to meet really pro players..plus getting free ride home from my chess club teacher advisor after tournaments =D

being a sales person selling stuff over the counter as a koperasi member, selling my '0h-so-yummy' buchetta's during Hari Koperasi..I remembered having to bring my mini toaster all the way from home and rushing to carefour to buy more ingredients coz' everybody loves it till they wanted more;

Disected a frog!!!

and many more times when we stayed back for ko-ku, we would walk together to ss15 to eat lunch.. add in some cc(cyber cafe) and a game of pool..what an adventure it was!

Oh! Did I mention that we get allowence too when we go out for tournaments..hehe..fun!..xD

and And! the one day trip where 5 to 6 tourist buses full with japanese students came to our school when I was in form 4 and form5! Each selected students get a japanese partner for that day and entertain them by interacting with them. Those were really fun time plus I got to know 2 cute japanese guy for that 2 years of the occasion =D

Ahhhh~ those were the days...

...and I always thought that i did not have any interesting moments in secondary school...

...I guess it was all covered by the memories of me always being alone in school..

I'm not a 'sad case' person after all..hehe

and I really do love and appreciate the last 2 years of my secondary school life.

P.S: To all my former classmates, I really hope that we could catch up one day soon. Really miss you all!

17-01-2010

Today passed as like any other ordinary day. People go grocery shopping as usual, eat their 3 meals a day as usual, nothing out of the blue but yet to me, today the 17th of January is a very special day indeed. Nostalgic day for me as i remember back my other years of this day....

Year 2010 will be a new start for me for so many different things in so many ways....

It beautiful to have found that someone to share my thoughts with yet...
It hurts to realise certain things..

With the 3 people whom I spend most/all of my years with have overlooked this beautiful day, my heart aches but its ok.

I promise myself that i will not cry today but i know i will break that promise....

Thank you for those who remembered this day....

I treasure every single moment with you in my heart